This is a bit of weird blog to write. I guess I would consider it a bit of Mystress Spring Stable cleaning.

I am putting out to pasture 2 boys…kinda.

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1. I am officially releasing brock my long distance sub. Things have been preventing us from communicating for a while. I gave it some time and I told him to find a solution. I have heard nothing. brock has been my sub to some degree for about 2 and  half years. The long-distance thing worked for us and although it would have been nice to meet it was OK if we did not. he had his very bad moments but overall he has been a good boy, very generous and dedicated.

I am disappointed but I feel no resentment towards him and hope to get the occasional news. I think it is in his best interest to be relesed now. It’s sad but it has to be done.

2. Next up is not a sub but my kinky ex. A month after our break up we had a friends with benefits arrangement. The last 2 times we got together it was not good. I was also going through a lot of stress and was not sure if that was the reason. Now I know better. I am not made really for a ‘friends-with-benefits’ arrangement. I have tried int he past and it always went bad. This one is a new twist. I had zero emotions left. There was no fear of attachment from sex. But there was such a lack of attachement I just know now I lost any sexual desire for him. I need to feel something for someone. I kind have been bad because I have not told him yet really…been avoiding returning his call for like 3 weeks now. I have never done ‘the guy thing’ before to that extent. He is a good person, kind, sweet…just not for me anymore though.

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1. Well I have mentioned him a bit before but I am talking about my bitch rich, the one I met in NC in January. he is arriving in 2 weeks for a visit. I am SO FREAKING EXCITED I cannot wait. 3 long months. We met while I was in NC for a cell popping workshop and clicked on both a vanilla and BDSM level. Upon my return home we on msn webcam all the time. And so I put him officially in consideration. In 2 week while visting me he will get a training collar during a very little ceremony. I have never done the long distance more emotional thing and its defintely been both good and frustrating. I do have to say not having the lust hormones blinding our judgement was a good thing as we got to really know each other. Sure its not like seeing the person but for 3 months I have seen him in a good mood, in a pissy mood, an argumentative mood, in a submissive mood…and I still like him.

2. Finally, there is a female sub in the horizon. she lives about 2-3 hours away from Montreal and I do know her from a few past occasions. Things just ended with her Master not too long ago. she contacted me a few weeks back asking if I would accept her accompanying me to an event she new I was attending. And she did again last night. Now she is not looking for anyone right now and I simply enjoy her company right now. No expectations. But who knows what the future holds. its very enjoyable for now.

Ah so nice. I may not have had a boy or special someone here in Montreal this year for St-Valentine’s day but it did not really matter to me this year. Even if it was a distant reciprocation I felt the love.

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My boy brock sent me these lovely flowers the other day. Are they not beautiful!

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And I am very happy to introduce my new bitch in consideration offcially, rich

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I met rich during my trip to North Carolina. We have stayed in close touch and talked about things a lot. yeah sucks the distance is there but we have planned trips in the future already. We’ll see where it goes. I put in offcially in consideration yesterday. he has but a rope as a collar for now but will be given a training collar on his first visit here (incentives, incentinves, incentives).

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Yay….2 days ago I received my Christmas gift from brock, my long-distance slave.

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I got a whole kit as I specified of luscious Romanian hemp Shibari rope (7 in total) with a Shibari suspension ring. The rope is really just divine and top quality. It was purchased at kinkyropes.com. I shoped around they really have great prices. What I love about the ropes to is they have a Mathew Walker Knot in the center so you always find the middle fast. Also you can request the ends to be finished in several ways. I chose the backsplice. The ring is about 6in in diameter and is made of aluminum. It is extremely light compared to its steel cousin but just as solid.

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Thank you boy! The ropes is just too damn sexy!

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OK I need some to tie now, now, NOW!

So I had a fun little exchange with my boy brock last week. I love getting him in trouble on purpose and then using it all against him. Of course so does he, right boy? Remember my reader he enjoys manipulation for light financial doming too and this is what this exchange is about.

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So I’ll give you a partial rundown of our email conversation last week:

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LE

Will you have some time alone anytime soon for your task? And has my list to Santa been taken care off?

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i don’t know when i’ll have time alone for sure Supreme One, gf doesn’t go back to work until the 4th. No Santa hasn’t placed the order yet either. When i’m in the house gf is usually right there doing things with me, and i can’t do it from work.

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LE

Are you trying to piss me off on purpose

Did I not consider taking you back becuase you claimed you belonged to me and would do EVERYTHING in your power to follow MY commands as ordered????????
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b
Dearest Lady Evyl

No i’m not trying to piss You off at all.

Yes You did and i am doing everything in my power to please You short of sending gf on here way.
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LE
So how are we goignt o fix this?

I have been beyond good with you working your way back up, have I not?

I do have a suggestion of course. I can order my gift as I have your cc info (and don’t be surprised you know I do). you know very well I would never use it without permission…but reading this you are gripped with a bit of fear and anxiety. And at the same time my whorish little boy is getting all hard fro me. Aren’t you boy?
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b
W/we can fix this in any way that pleases You.

Yes Lady Evyl You have been very good.

i have bought You a lot of things over $XXXX to date. All though i am a slave to my submissiveness and does excite me very much all with taking me to poor farm.

You suggestion is fine but i’ve changed CC’s since You last ordered something so You’ll need my new one. Yes Lady Evyl You do have me hard and squirming.
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LE
HAHAHAHA, you actually have kept a tab of how much you spent on me? I LOVE IT…that is too funny.

Oh I know my little worthless whore is squirming for me. And tell me what have I not let you do one single time since you have been back at my service, or working your way back?

Yep, that is right, you have not been aloud to come for me once. Perhaps, if I am in a good mood once I get your new cc number, I may permit you under my specific direction for this afternoon or way back home.
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b
Why is that funny? Have You been keeping tab? Has any sub spent more?

You are right You haven’t allowed me orgasim. What are You planning to do with me new cc number? i so wish You weren’t so far away and i could be in Your presence.
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LE
No I have not kept tabs, I can’t be bothered…it would be your job to do that you are close to reaching first place. There is one higher number. you won’t achieve it this time around though lol. But in time if you are good.

The faster you get out of the ground the faster we will discuss you coming here…so you can be in my presence

Now I know you, don’t forget…you are stalling by not sending the number right away as I demanded!

I expect it in my inbox on my return from lunch, clear?

And then will think of a devious return home for you!

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That was then followed with our games of extracting the new CC number out of him and tasks of self CBT in the process. he was all squirming and ready by then end and my Santa gift is on its way.

Good boy!

Well this will actually be a BDSM/Fetish free weekend. It’s Christmas time on full swing this weekend. Work party tonight and vanilla friends tomorrow.

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As you have seen from the last posts things went sour with a special someone. Not a sub so much, a mix of kink and vanilla. I am not detailing anything but I really need to just purge a bit my emotions and although my blog is entertainment it does have a diary side to it. So anyways although I am not keeping false hope the door is neither completely closed. A little time apart will bring forth the right decision for both involved. of course brock, my long distance slave, would love to give ‘him’ a beating lol.

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The last 2 evenings I have been bad. I have been purging my demons emotionally and trying to break my personal emotional cycle of such a situation. Its not easy and yes the first night was spent with a phone call to 2 girlfriends  and a bottle of wine. We spoke  about everything, not just what happened to me. But I wanted to get drunk. Thing is I never ate and finished the bottle in about 2 hours. I got up from the couch and I realized this was going to be challenge. I went and snacked just a bit. I lied back down and it was spinning. Hate that. Then I did something I have not done in probably about 13 years. I threw up from too much alcohol.  OK most of you are saying gross…ewww. And yes it was not fun. But man it felt AWESOME. I felt like a bad young adult breaking a rule of society. The concept did me a lot of good.

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Last night I had dinner at a girlfriend’s place. We chatted, drank, and again I was bad I smoked up something I never do either. Then we watched the worst movie 9but funny): Zombie Strippers, with Jenna Jameson. Thank god I was stoned cause it was bad. Its totally a porn plot without the sex. I am not a fan of porn but at some point I was just screaming at the TV “FUCK ALREADY”. It was again a great purging excellent night.

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Tonight with the xmas party I will again been nicely marinated with booze. Sat will be more quiet. But I am doing much better today. Of  course ‘his’ bday is coming up and I had ordered him a special gift from Funsexxxtoys. It arrived this morning. Still can use it but its kinda made for 2, not a solo thing. Oh well! Thanks for reading and I’ll leave you with a hot FemDom pic from Men in Pain for the weekend!

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Well you know my bad disappeared long-distance slave has been begging his way back to me ever so slowly for about 3 weeks. I told him he was 3 feet below ground after him saying he know knew his place was at my feet. So he has been inching his way back to ground level.

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Now he is a 1f 4in. he was terribly lucky because the quicker he made up for my missed birthday gift, from when we stopped talking, would gain him 1 ft. So in those two weeks he only moved up 8 inches and that was on good behavior. Hey, the boy has to learn his lesson.

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But back to the gift…it arrived Friday and WOW I was so excited. I got a very sexy pair of knee high leather boots. They are just so luscious. he did this task right. Here are a couple of pics…

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So Hot

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So Sexy

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So this sparked a lot of talk between us and his foot festish which we will explore and really get in touch with his submissiveness. Well that is once he is back in good graces…or at feet level!

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If you remember the post I wrote recently entitled Hmmm What to Do, I speak of a deserted slave now begging to come back.

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I am updating you: he is eagerly working, slowly, his way back. When he said he realizes he only belongs at my feet I answered: “Right now you are more about 3 feet underground from my feet but we will see if you can work your way up”.

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As days went I would tell him what level he was at. Since this morning he is at 2ft…so he dug himself out 1 ft…2 more to go to surface earth. But yesterday I was in a playful mood and I gave him a task: “I will leave you with a task for tonight. Nothing exciting…just getting the rust out that has accumulated:Lets see…lets stay in the theme…a pic of you digging dirt with a shovel.”

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I got my pic this morning!

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Funny how you know which sub will come crawling back to you at some point, no matter how long.

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This weekend I got an email from brock, my old long-distance slave. I owned him close to 16months and, although I saw it coming, one day I got an email from him saying he could no longer be with me. Life changes and I can respect that. But one does not come to his Mistress announcing that its over’ without room for prior discussion. And that is what he did. I never even answered that email. Its been 5 months now.

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Now he is begging to come back! Claims to have seen the error of his ways. he has sent me 4 emails…4….in a 24hr period. I do not know what to do.

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I can hear you saying: “what? fuck him”. And I completely agree…under normal ciscumstances. See brock is precious on one very important point. he likes to be financially dominated too.

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I am not that kind of Domme looking for gifts normally…BUT if the case presents itself how can I let it pass, on top of it with a good rapport, isn’t it in my best interest to take him back…after a bit of torture or course.

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So if you are reading this, brock, beg as if your life depended on it..no more then 2x a day, and maybe I’ll answer you soon enough.

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My latest gifts from slave brock have arrived.
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Hmmmm….shiny…so excited!
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Mystress Lady Evyl
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So had my slave, a long distance one but will meet soon enough, write Me a letter as a task. His instructions were simple: Write about Me. Here is was I received…

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BROCK W/COLLAR

Dearest Lady Evyl
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Thank You very much for giving me this opportunity to write a post to Your blog about my feelings and experiences with You. i consider myself very lucky to have found You and for You to have accepted me as Your slave boy. i look forward to hearing from You every day.
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i’ve been conversing with You and been Your slave for about a year now and things have been great. i just wish i wasn’t so far from You in distance. i can’t wait for us to meet in person. i just pray that i will please You. After all You are the Superior One and my whole purpose is to serve You.
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You have always been very fair even when You wouldn’t have to be. i understand that when i do wrong or act like a male pig i deserve to be punished even though we are not IP (in person). You have been very creative with punishments considering our distance.
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Things have always been interesting, with You. We’ve thrown dice for a little gambling on tasks and gifts i’ve sent to You. You have never been out to break me or hurt me. Lady Evyl i like that You’ve taken time with me and gotten to know me as i’ve been allowed to get to know You.
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HAPPY TO BE MINE

The tasks have been great also, i seriously don’t know how You come up with them. The rope tying You had me do around my penis and scrotum for my drive home, sometimes allowing orgasm and sometimes not allowing orgasm. Catching every drop of my orgasm and licking every drop.
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The last task as punishment You gave me was awesome. The punishment was due to it being warm outside here compared to where You are. My task was to find a seclude area in the woods, and strip. i then had to walk are around for 10 minutes. Once my walk was over i was too find a stick and hit my swollen cock 20 times without orgasm. Which i might add was very difficult, and the marks on my cock lasted 2 days.
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So in summary Lady Evyl You are the greatest and there’s nothing You could ask of me that would be to much.
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Love
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slave brock
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