Been Bad
Friday, December 11th, 2009Well this will actually be a BDSM/Fetish free weekend. It’s Christmas time on full swing this weekend. Work party tonight and vanilla friends tomorrow.
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As you have seen from the last posts things went sour with a special someone. Not a sub so much, a mix of kink and vanilla. I am not detailing anything but I really need to just purge a bit my emotions and although my blog is entertainment it does have a diary side to it. So anyways although I am not keeping false hope the door is neither completely closed. A little time apart will bring forth the right decision for both involved. of course brock, my long distance slave, would love to give ‘him’ a beating lol.
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The last 2 evenings I have been bad. I have been purging my demons emotionally and trying to break my personal emotional cycle of such a situation. Its not easy and yes the first night was spent with a phone call to 2 girlfriends and a bottle of wine. We spoke about everything, not just what happened to me. But I wanted to get drunk. Thing is I never ate and finished the bottle in about 2 hours. I got up from the couch and I realized this was going to be challenge. I went and snacked just a bit. I lied back down and it was spinning. Hate that. Then I did something I have not done in probably about 13 years. I threw up from too much alcohol. OK most of you are saying gross…ewww. And yes it was not fun. But man it felt AWESOME. I felt like a bad young adult breaking a rule of society. The concept did me a lot of good.
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Last night I had dinner at a girlfriend’s place. We chatted, drank, and again I was bad I smoked up something I never do either. Then we watched the worst movie 9but funny): Zombie Strippers, with Jenna Jameson. Thank god I was stoned cause it was bad. Its totally a porn plot without the sex. I am not a fan of porn but at some point I was just screaming at the TV “FUCK ALREADY”. It was again a great purging excellent night.
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Tonight with the xmas party I will again been nicely marinated with booze. Sat will be more quiet. But I am doing much better today. Of course ‘his’ bday is coming up and I had ordered him a special gift from Funsexxxtoys. It arrived this morning. Still can use it but its kinda made for 2, not a solo thing. Oh well! Thanks for reading and I’ll leave you with a hot FemDom pic from Men in Pain for the weekend!
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